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This journal is going Friends Only. But only partly. I've started locking all most of my personal entries (but I haven't gone through my past entries to lock those--at least not yet). All of my fic and fan-related things will remain unlocked. There isn't any one reason for me doing this, but it's something I've been considering for a while.

As for friending me: I love having friends, seriously. Don't feel like you have to comment here and ask permission to friend me or anything, but keep in mind I might not friend you back. You're welcome to watch just for my fic, though.

If you do want me to friend you back, say so in a comment or something, so I won't spam up your flist if you're just here for the fic. :)
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title: Old Enough
pairing: Jeff/Jensen
rating: NC-17
words: 3179
warning: prostitution, underage sex, underage drinking, mild dub-con
summary: "How old are you, sweetheart?”

“Seventeen."

“More than old enough for me.”
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: For the "prostitution/sex work" square on my kink bingo card.

Old Enough on ao3
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title: Casting Couch
pairing: Jensen/OMC, Jared
rating: NC-17
words: 1375
warning: dub-con, sexual coercion
summary: Jensen recalls a time when it wasn't so easy.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: This scenario's been in my head a while, so I figured I should probably go ahead and write it down. Thank you always to [livejournal.com profile] sulwen for listening to all my ideas.

Casting Couch on ao3
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I haven't signed up yet because I want to figure out an idea to write before I commit, but I wanted to put this here, because I always want more John or Jeff fic.



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silentdescant: (uhhh what?)
I think I mentioned the one-day film challenge (Crash Cinema) in my last post? Well, I did that. The film we made in 8(ish) hours came out kind of ridiculous but not terrible. Hopefully amusing. It was for the theme of Argo (that new Ben Affleck movie), and we had to incorporate a bunch of stuff into it. Anyway, I went to the press screening of Argo on Monday and LOVED it, and our short film is showing before the premiere of Argo tonight, so I'm going to see it again! This time with the whole red carpet dealio (lol). I might come back with more thoughts later, but for now I'll just say that I really enjoyed the movie, and that it was very tense at times but surprisingly hilarious at times too. Definitely not a "funny" movie, but lighthearted enough to break up the crazy tension and time pressure. Really good, though; I recommend it.

Last night, I watched Devour. Purely because of Jensen. (The things I do for him...) Reactions: 1) LOL 2) no really, LOL, what is that thing? 3) there is some terrible acting going on here 4) holy god, Jensen is pretty 5) he just can't escape the hell, devil, possession, psychopath shit, can he? Okay, honestly, it wasn't as terrible as I was expecting it to be, but I had some pretttttty low expectations. Jensen was about the only good thing in it, and I'm glad he was the star because if he'd only shown up in a couple of scenes, I don't know that I could've gotten through it. I loved all his little bb psychopath moments. Had to hide my eyes when he was cutting off his tongue, though. D: I came out of that movie just wanting someone to edit together that footage with SPN footage to make a video about young!Dean. It fits pretty well, right?

I've seen New York Minute (ridiculous, but I grew up watching Mary Kate & Ashley movies, so that wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be), so next up is Christmas Cottage. I will admit, I don't have high hopes. lol sorry, Jared, it just doesn't look like my type of movie. I do like Thomas Kinkade in real life, though. I will give it a shot.

How awesome was SPN 8.02, btw? FUCKING AWESOME. Can't wait for the next one. Is it Wednesday yet?

Other things: I keep calling the job to find out the schedule for my training and they keep not calling me back. UGH, I WANT TO START ALREADY. Hopefully I'm about to pick up another job, though: teaching kids robotics like I did this summer, except year-round. Yay? Yay money and robots, at least. And finally, I'm trying to get back in the habit of checking my f-list and posting here, so keep on top of me to do that. In the meantime, you know where to find me (on twitter. always. constantly. forever.). Oh, I'm writing a bit more too. Trying to finish a kink_bingo fic that keeps growing. Hopefully I can wrap that up soon. And who's excited for NaNoWriMo? I think I'm settling on an idea, now I just want to START it. \o/
silentdescant: (monaboyd love)
title: Full Circle
authors: [livejournal.com profile] sulwen and [livejournal.com profile] silentdescant
pairing: Jeff/Jensen, past Jensen/Danneel
rating: NC-17
words: 8065
warning: break-up
summary: Danneel and Jensen break up; Jensen goes to Jeff for comfort.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: this started out as off the cuff h/c fic and turned into 8k of porn. oops? I don't think we've ever written something together that HASN'T turned into porn, tbh.

Full Circle on ao3
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title: Foxhole
pairing: Dean/Benny
rating: NC-17
words: 1105
warning: SPOILERS for 8.01; show-level violence
summary: Dean's quick. Quiet and agile and lightning-fast. Hard to catch.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved. Characters are not mine.
a/n: I couldn't even wait a day after the episode before writing Dean/Benny fic. Link goes to ao3; I'll add Benny in the pairing tag tomorrow (didn't want to spoil people for his existence quite yet if they're subscribed to me there).

Foxhole on ao3
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Yesterday was my birthday! It was pretty great, just sat around reading fic for most of the day. I still have no job. BUT my film, which was indeed finished, was accepted into a film festival in Sacramento! I am SO EXCITED. \o/!!!! Heading down there mid-August for that, hopefully I can do a lot of networking and talking to people. Still need a job. D:

I have totally failed at keeping up with LJ, I'm sorry. /o\ I really do need to get better about it, I miss LJ. Twitter is still my home, at the moment. In my absence from LJ, I forgot to mention here that I have posted fic! You probably already saw it if you're on twitter or subscribe to me on AO3.

The first, written with [livejournal.com profile] sulwen, is the first part of the mpreg omega fic we've been talking about for aaaaages. Adam as the pack's Alpha, Tommy as the only fertile Omega. Kinks include knotting, obviously, and dubcon that goes with the trope, as well as mpreg, underage sex, and some incest (more of that to come in future parts). Born This Way

The second is some very off the cuff Jared/Jensen porn with some of my usual kinks: D/s, comeplay, breathplay... But it's basically fluff. First time really trying out writing J2, which I hope to do lots more. Oh, Baby, Baby

And finally, I wanted to say that [livejournal.com profile] sulwen and I have found our next big passion project. We're getting a very early start on next year's spn_j2_bigbang... which is still posting right now for this year, sign ups won't even open for a while yet. But we're REALLY EXCITED. We've been messing around with a lot of ideas, even some original fic, outlining and dabbling and brainstorming, but nothing has felt URGENT in the way this idea does. It's really really great to have that need to tell a story again. And it's probably a good thing we're starting early because lol we can already tell this is gonna be looooong. :D We definitely feel better this way than doing what we did with LBB, jumping into it at the last minute with a 160k fic and not getting it beta'd until like, the day before posting... hahaha hopefully with starting this far in advance, things will fall into place a little easier.

ps: my Jack is the cutest puppy in the entire world, I swear.

NEWS!

Jun. 24th, 2012 02:48 pm
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Biggest bit of news: I graduated from SCAD. \o/ This is awesome, obviously, but I already have mixed feelings because damn, I miss school. Well, not yet, but it hasn't sunk in that I won't be going back, so I feel like I still have classes to take, you know? I feel like it's just summer break. But I graduated, I won't be going back (not there, anyway; if I go to grad school at some point, it'll be somewhere else). [livejournal.com profile] undersea Came down a few days before and stayed with me, and we got to sit next to each other during the morning ceremony, which was really cool. Our families also got to meet, we all hung out and had dinner together, and our moms got along like... well, pick a similie.

My grandparents on both sides also came down, and we stayed at a beach house on Tybee Island after I moved out of my apartment (bye, great apartment! bye, independence! ;_____;), and from there my mom and I went up to Atlanta for a week or so to get all my stuff and a couple cars shipped to Seattle. The cars arrived a couple days ago and the rest of my stuff arrived today, and I haven't unpacked at all. For the time being, I'm just at home, job hunting. I don't know how long term I'm staying here... O.o Hopefully not TOO long, because wow, I already miss living alone/with roommates as opposed to my parents, lol.

Additions to the family: I got a puppy!! This has been several months in the making, but it wasn't a sure thing until I finally talked to my family about it right around graduation, when he came available to adopt. He was seized in a hoarding case or something and was basically tied up in legal stuff until the case finally closed--earlier than expected, which meant my sister had to adopt him for me right after graduation before I got to Seattle (I thought I would be home by the time he was available). He's a little long-haired chihuahua, VERY fluffy, black and white with black around his eyes that makes him look kind of pissed off all the time, even though he's the happiest little puppy ever. (I keep saying puppy, but he's like 2 years old. Just tiny.) I (re)named him Jack, and I call him all sorts of stupid, ridiculous names, and he got used to me pretty fast, sticks to me like glue, all that sort of stuff. \o/ My sister's also getting a new puppy (in addition to Dazzle and Peanut, who both live with her at school already), but she won't be available to adopt until August. LOTS OF DOGS. Fortunately, she goes back to school (with all three dogs) in late August, which will leave me with just Jack.

Fandom news! The biggest fandom news is that I have a new fandom now. Supernatural! Which I haven't posted about AT ALL, because I have basically avoided livejournal for MONTHS. I haven't even been on except to read fic, pretty much. Haven't even read my flist. /o\ I'M SO SORRY, I want to do better about that. Twitter's basically my main social outlet at the moment, even though half the shit I read there annoys me these days. lol

BUT, SUPERNATURAL. AND SPN RPS. So here's how it went[livejournal.com profile] sulwen came to visit me in Savannah over spring break (St Patrick's Day, yay parade and drunkeness!) and forced me to watch the pilot episode. I was immediately hooked and we watched all the way into season 2 before she left. Then after she left, I continued watching NONSTOP until I caught up with the middle of season 7, which I watched as it aired. And until I had to pack up my TV, I KEPT watching spn nonstop, rewatching my favorite episodes and sequences of episodes and rewatching my favorites AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN, and right now I'm going into WITHDRAWAL. Luckily the CW and TNT both have iPad apps that can stream episodes, I just can't choose which episodes I wanna see. BUT I DON'T EVEN CARE RIGHT NOW, I just need my spn fix.

Dean is pretty much my favorite character on TV now. There's lots of thinky-thought reasons, but one very superficial reason is that Jensen Ackles is seriously pretty. I got my Jensen fix last night as I made my parents watch Ten Inch Hero (which has become my feel-good movie, and my mom enjoyed it too, yay). So that leads me to SPN RPS! Jensen and Jared as a fic pairing are as happy and fluffy as Sam and Dean are angsty and fucked up, it's pretty great. I've been reading SO MUCH FIC, lots of rps while I was still catching up with episodes, and I just recently started reading actual plotty spn fic now that season 7 has ended. SO MUCH ANGST. SO MUCH KINK. SO MUCH EXCELLENT, AMAZING FIC. Seriously, some of the fic I've read recently has been the best fic I've EVER READ. In any fandom. I had no idea the fic would be this good. I love it. Annnnnnnd I got into the fandom/finished school just in time for the gigantic spn_j2_bigbang to start posting. \o/!!! I love Sam and Dean and John and Jared and Jensen and Jeff and Misha and just EVERYBODY, it's all amazing and I'm so so so so happy rolling around in a new to me fandom.

Other fandom news: I've seen Avengers several times and LOVED IT, and Clint/Hawkeye is my favorite (UNF HOT) and he needs his own movie okay. I've been reading some good Clint/Natasha and I've always loved Tony Stark so I like him in fic, and Clint/Loki is some fucked up awesomeness. Haven't done a lot of exploring in that fandom, though, just read what I've seen recced. Other fandom stuff: Adam's album is amazing and I love it (I don't think I ever talked about that, SORRY LIVEJOURNAL), and I may be in the minority but I fucking love Tommy with his pink hair. I love Tommy full stop, really, but you already knew that. :D MCR is fairly quiet, which means my epic mcr feelings are fairly quiet at the moment, but Frank on twitter continues to be a delight, so that's always a good thing.

Plans for the foreseeable future include: seeing Brave now that my sister is back from Cuba, seeing Avengers again with her, seeing other movies as they come up, forcing my family to watch spn so I can talk about ALL OF MY FEELINGS aloud, and search for jobs. Search for a gazillion jobs. SIGH. I also want to get back to writing. My film is done, I just need to get those DVDs ready to send out, and I finally have some time to go back to writing, YAY. I have so many things planned with [livejournal.com profile] sulwen, you guys have NO IDEA. :DDDD

Missed you guys. Gonna try to get back in the habit of reading my flist and posting updates here. But really, if you wanna keep up with me, follow me on twitter. @silentdescant!
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EULOGY

I've posted on twitter about this a lot, but I realized I haven't actually linked the campaign here. I started my indiegogo fundraising campaign for my film, and so far I've raised alllllllmost half of my goal, which is allllllmost what I need to shoot my film! I'd really like to have around $2500 before I shoot, which is in a week and a half. I'm almost there! Any support you can give, even if it's just spreading the word, would be amazing and so helpful.

I explain a little more about the costs and stuff in this post, or on the indiegogo website, and in that LJ post, I'm offering my fic-writing services instead of the perks listed on indiegogo, if you would prefer to donate that way.

It's getting down to the wire! I'm so excited--stressed out of my mind, but so excited. My actors have been cast, locations chosen, and equipment rented... The biggest thing I need now is set dressing (mostly funeral flower arrangements for a church). But I'm sure it will all come together soon! :)


I wish that silly embedded widget would show up... :(
silentdescant: (need you like air)
title: Oh, Baby, Baby
pairing: Adam/Tommy
rating: NC-17
words: 1700
warning: werewolves, knotting, comeplay, bloodplay
summary: ...the sound of drums, or maybe just his heartbeat--or maybe Adam's heartbeat, reverberating through Tommy's body. The words big and stretchedand hurt. It's all too much, but he can't wait--can't fucking wait for more.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: this is for my awesome girl [livejournal.com profile] sulwen because she likes werewolves. totally off the cuff and unbetad. :P

on ao3


Oh, Baby, Baby )
silentdescant: (dirty sexy beaten loved)
Title: When Love Fails
Author: [livejournal.com profile] silentdescant & [livejournal.com profile] sulwen
Artist: [livejournal.com profile] rude_bunny
Betas: [livejournal.com profile] isweedan & [livejournal.com profile] pussy_in_person
Type: Drama
Word Count: 160,000
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Adam/Tommy, Adam/multiple OMCs, Tommy/OFC, Tommy/multiple OMCs, past Adam/Brad
Warnings: Angst, Suicidal Ideation, Drug and Alcohol Addiction, Infidelity, Dubious Consent, Drug Overdose, Severe Main Character Injury, Depression, Eating Disorder, Unsafe Sex, Violence, Multiple Partners, Explicit Heterosexual Sex, Homophobia, Vomiting, Jealousy, Physical and Verbal Fighting, Hospitalization, Body Dysmorphia, Coming Out Publicly, BDSM (D/s specifically), Breathplay, Humiliation, Orgasm Control, Belting, Bloodplay, Knifeplay, Bondage, Pain Kink, Semi-Public Sex, Rough/Angry Sex, Unhealthy/Unsafe Expressions of All Above Kinks.

Summary: What starts as rebound sex quickly turns into a downward spiral of co-dependent addiction. Adam and Tommy both bring heavy baggage to their relationship: Adam is being pushed harder and harder every day by an unsympathetic manager and is starting to long for the no-consequences life of anonymity he’s left behind, while Tommy carries the weight of a string of infidelities and personal insecurities. Their relationship takes them to a darker place than either of them could have imagined.



Link to fic master post: on archiveofourown
Link to art master post: here
Link to mix master post: here
silentdescant: (dirty sexy beaten loved)
Since our fic won't be ready until tonight, Sarah and I decided it would be okay to post the mix a little early, as a kind of teaser for the fic. We had so much fun pulling these songs together, so I hope you enjoy the playlist. We picked out a line from each that particularly fits the characters and scenes, but it's not really a literal soundtrack. It does, however, follow the general story (vaguely), so this mix can give you a sense of the tone from beginning to end. We're so excited to post later. Enjoy this in the meantime!

eta: the fic has been posted! :)




Disclaimer: The RIAA dictates that all music downloaded should be removed after previewing for twenty-four hours. What you do with the music you collect here is your own responsibility.
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It is that time, that time when I ask for money.

As many of you probably know, I am a senior in film school right now. My senior project is to create a short film, of which I am the writer and director, and the goal is to submit this film to film festivals in as many places as I afford. A short film is a "calling card" for lots of filmmakers, and the stuff on my reel could land me a job. So I'm asking for your support now, because making movies costs money.

My film! technical and content details! )

My vague, proposed budget is around $2,500. That should cover pretty much everything, and give us good quality things when we need them (like the hotel).

Some of this money will also go to what my professor likes to call extending the "life of the film". After my senior showcase in the spring when I graduate, where my film along with all of the other films from my year will be shown in our movie theater on the big screen, student films basically die. I don't want my film to die, and I think it has a very good chance at success if I submit it to as many film festivals as I can manage. Film festival submissions cost money, but there are sometimes awards, grants, prizes, and invaluable opportunities to get my work seen by a ton of people. Film festivals are where new filmmakers get noticed, and I want to get noticed. I believe my film can get me noticed, too. So this is the biggest need for your help. There's no proposed budget for this part. The more submission money I have, the more film festivals I can submit my film to, so any little bit helps.

I will be putting together a pitch video and an official fundraising project on indiegogo which is basically like kickstarter. That's not set up yet, but it will be, and you could donate there or here. The difference will be the incentives. There, I will be offering incentives like your name in the credits of the film, set photography from the shoot, printed and signed "programs" used in a funeral scene in the film, DVDs, posters, and artwork from my storyboard artist.

Here, I am offering... well, you can have your name in the credits too, and a handwritten note of thanks in the programs from set, but my main incentive for this little donate button is fanfic. I will take prompts for the fandoms I write in, and even fandoms I'm familiar with but haven't written in before, basically whatever you want. I will write stories for you, in exchange for your support for my senior film. I've never participated in those charity auctions or fic exchanges like this before, so I don't know how other people do it, but if you donate some money we can email about prompts and whatever you want me to do for you in exchange. My email address is silentdescant@gmail.com. There's no deadline for donations, and you don't even have to give me a prompt if you don't want to (though I really do enjoy writing for people, and I would love to give you something in return for donating), and you can donate here or via indiegogo (once I get that set up in the next week or so). And there's no pressure or anything. This is just a request, if you have the cash to spare, to consider my project, and if you don't, then please pimp out this post or the indiegogo link when it's available! :)

Thank you, thank you, thank you, and I will update you on progress and all that soon!






silentdescant: (save my soul)
Well, it is a new year. It is the year of graduation and jobs and a new place to live. It is also the year of new music and tour from Adam, which I am REALLY excited about. I don't expect new music from MCR, but I'm still holding out hope for videos and comics and whatever else those boys come up with (I can't imagine they'll hibernate for long). I want to do things like eat healthier and lose weight (I did both this past year, but it's hard to stick to, and I want to get better at the sticking to it part). I also want to be more social (I definitely started that this past year, but I can do better), and meet some online friends, now that I know some people in kind-of-my area. I want to write more, although that sounds silly when you read onto this next bit of the post. I want to write some original fic, though, and that's always hard to stick to, for me.

But check this out. I was going to do that end of the year fic meme that I saw a couple people fill out, but it wasn't working for me, so I just tallied things up instead. I wrote and posted 46 fics, two of which were co-written with [livejournal.com profile] sulwen (and one of those was for the sick!Frank challenge at [livejournal.com profile] yobrothatssick). One was a 41k fic for [livejournal.com profile] lambliffbigbang and one was a 25k fic for [livejournal.com profile] bandombigbang. 15 fics were for the summer fill fest at [livejournal.com profile] glam_kink (and they're having a new year fill fest now, you should check that out). But this is the really shocking (to me) part: my wordcount totals.

solo posted fic: 122,053
posted fic with [livejournal.com profile] sulwen: 20,883
(which brings my total posted fic to 142,936 words)

But that's not all. I mean, I am SHOCKED that I wrote more than 120k this year on my own. But listen to this. [livejournal.com profile] sulwen and I were both signed up for LBB again, and we both had problems with our fics, and on the very same day, we both planned to drop out of the challenge (which I hate doing). So to keep from dropping out, we teamed up and started outlining the fic we had both dreamed of, the one nobody would ever in a million years write for us. This was in October. Since then (and the fic is only about 80% finished so far), we have written about 124,500 words together on it. That's almost the same as I wrote solo all year. My mind was blown. Especially once I added all my writing solo and with her together: 267,436. That is a fucking ridiculous amount of words, you guys. I'm pretty pleased. It's hard for me to even remember writing all those fics earlier in the year, because our LBB took over my life, and I can't even think about what it was like before it wasn't a part of my life. That and all our notfic which we desperately want to write but can't until LBB is finished. Finding an amazing writing partner is pretty much the best thing ever. We are constantly inspired to write more.

So for the new year, the pressure is on. We have to finish our LBB by our posting date in January, and we each have a [livejournal.com profile] bandomreversebb fic to work on, and I have to get everything together to shoot my film in February (and March). And then I have to find a job and a place to live and graduate, holy fuck. More immediately: I have to pack. I've been home since Thanksgiving and I'm heading back to Savannah at ass o'clock in the morning tomorrow. Then all that other shit can start.

Overall, I think it's been a great year. But I have high hopes for this next one. :)


btw, all of my bandom and glam fic is up at archive of our own, and all my cowritten fic with [livejournal.com profile] sulwen is and will be posted there exlusively. I will probably keep posting solo fic there and here on lj for the foreseeable future. If I ever get the time, I'll work on transferring all my lotrips fic over to AO3 as well, so everything can be in one place, but who knows when that will happen. :P

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[livejournal.com profile] sulwen wanted to do one for adam fandom! so she made some questions! and i like when she asks me questions and i get to ramble! and i had like a few margaritas tonight and rambled for 20 mintues about adam and tommy (and brad)! ~enjoy!

1. What's your username and is there a story behind it?
2. Where are you from and where do you live now?
3. Besides Adam, who are some of your favorite musical artists?
4. Have you been in any other fandoms besides Adam? Which ones?
5. How long have you been an Adam fan, and how did you first hear about him?
6. Have you seen Adam in concert? Any particular favorite concert experience?
7. What's your favorite song off of For Your Entertainment and why?
8. What are you favorite genres of fanfic? (angst, fluff, porn, crack, AU, etc...)
9. Do you have an OTP? What is it, and why do you love it?
10. Are you a fan of any of Adam's many talented friends and colleagues ? If so, who?
11. What story do you wish someone would write?
12. What fanfic would you recommend to everyone? Tell us about your favorite stories!
13. Tell us about what you're hoping to see during the Trespassing album cycle.
14. And of course, the eternal debate: how do you like Adam's hair best? Up? Down? Shaved sides? Tinted tips? FACIAL HAIR? Feel free to link a picture in your post!

Glam Voice Meme by silentdescant

(eta: the fic i couldn't remember the title of is "call the darkness light" by my_silent_hour)
silentdescant: (join the black parade)
I did the voice meme thing everyone's been doing! It's super cool to hear everyone's voices. I've been bad about leaving comments since I do most shit on my phone, but I'm listening! Wanna hear me ramble for 15 minutes? :D

The Questions:
1. What's your username and is there a story behind it?
2. Where are you from and where do you live now?
3. What are you wearing? Yes, I am hitting on you.
4. How long have you been in bandom? How did you get into it?
5. Which bands are your favorites?
6. Which band members are your favorites?
7. Have you seen any of them in concert? Any fun stories or memories to share?
8. Do you have an OTP? What is it, and why do you love it?
9. What story do you wish someone would write?
10. Are you working on something for bandom right now? Tell us a little bit about it.
11. You've got fic open somewhere on your computer right now, don't lie. So go to one of your open tabs or word documents or whatever, and read us a couple of lines.
12. Say these words: Iero, haberdashery, LOLcat, flist, dirigible, halcyon, nemesis, ephemeral, languorous


Bandom Voice Meme by silentdescant

Bandom Voice Meme 2 by silentdescant

I had to split it in two because it cut me off in the middle! Bad soundcloud. Listening back to it, I don't think I said "ridiculous" at all, which is crazy because I say that word like a million times a day. Wow! I do say "like" and "super" and "awesome" a lot, oops. Voice posts are cool, I kind of want to do them more often. I like rambling about shit (even though I do get off track way easily).

Happy Thanksgiving!! My dad is out skiing and my sister is... still in bed, I think. Or playing with puppies. I'm recording the parade for us to watch later over Chinese food or something. /laziest family

silentdescant: (mikeyway)
Today was the last day of the film festival. I've been BOOKED UP this entire past week, seeing movies or going to panels from 8am to 10pm or even midnight on a couple nights. Barely had time to eat, no time for homework, didn't get much sleep, and I definitely caught a cold. But it was amazing. I've seen a lot of REALLY great stuff. Carnage, with Kate Winslet and Jodie Foster, was amazing, and it played out in real time in one location, I ADORED it. Jeff, Who Lives at Home, which was my last movie of the festival, was excellent and funny and all of the scenes were improvised, which I find fascinating. Also the co-writer/co-director who came to accept the award on behalf of him and his brother, Jay Duplass, was SUPER ADORABLE. The Artist, which was opening night, was gorgeous and really intersting. A silent black & white movie. Butter, with Jennifer Garner and Olivia Wilde, was a surprise hit, and was HILARIOUS. We Need to Talk About Kevin was fucking disturbing but... good? Crazy as hell, but Ezra Miller was great, and he was also in Another Happy Day, which I ADORED. Ellen Barkin and the writer/director Sam Levinson were here with that. Bringing Up Bobby was Famke Janssen's writing/directing debut, and I really enjoyed that a lot, and also she is gorgeous in real life. Ray Liotta was here with The Son of No One, which I thought was really great; it reminded me of The Departed, kind of? Coriolanus was really interesting... Wasn't expecting it to be THAT Shakespearian, but it was, and I thought it really worked. And A Dangerous Method, that was pretty great, and kinky, and kind of funny as well. Loved Kiera Knightly in it. Aaron Eckhart and James Marsden were both here also but I didn't get to see them (though I did see James both in a theater and outside the hotel. LOVE.). The Muppets movie had it's world premiere last night, but I opted not to wait in line to try and get a rush ticket for that, and I also didn't have a ticket for tonight's closing night movie, Like Crazy, but I'm cool with that. I ended on a really great note this afternoon (with Jeff and the Jay Duplass Q&A).

Old movies: I also saw Barry Lyndon, which was... LONG AS FUCK and I thought it was kind of boring, but Alec Baldwin and James Toback came out to talk about it so that was neat, and Born of the Fourth of July, which I hadn't seen either, but that one was really great. Oliver Stone came to talk about that, and to accept an award. Lily Tomlin was also here with The Late Show, and to be honest I remember her more than the movie! She was great, though.

Indie movies: Let Go was really quirky and interesting and definitely cute. And Take Me Home, about a woman who gets in a taxi and they travel from NY to California, that was pretty sweet and cute. There was also A Year in Mooring, with Josh Lucas and James Cromwell (who I saw many times) which was so atmospheric and gorgeous, I really enjoyed it because it didn't go through the traditional Hollywood structure. Inuk was really great too, set in Greenland, and there were no professional actors, it was crazy. All the kids were actually from the children's home up there, and the hunters were actually hunters. It was so great. The guy was a documentary filmmaker with them for a long time before asking them to be in this narrative.

The documentaries that I saw were stunning. To be honest, I think I liked them more than the narrative films. It's much harder to choose a favorite, in any case. PressPausePlay was AMAZING, and it's actually available for download on their site and you should check this shit out. It's right up your alley, and it made me so emotional about art and music and creativity. These Amazing Shadows was about the National Film Registry and it was really great too, and it's going to be on PBS on Dec 29th at 10, you should check that out too. The Bully Project was kind of mindblowing. It was about school bullies, and kids who committed suicide, and it followed a kid around at school and FILMED THE BULLYING and fuck, guys, I was crying my way through that one. The City Dark was about stars and the night sky, and light pollution in cities and even its effect on the human body. It was FASCINATING and also really stunning, but I have a thing for stars and astronomy. They made connections between breast cancer and constant light! I ate that shit up. Oh, and GROW! was about young farmers--young people getting passionate about organic farming. I liked it more than I thought I would, and the filmmakers were around all week, they were pretty great. All of the documentaries were so gorgeous, I loved them.

I went to these "Coffee Talks" almost every weekday morning, and those were fantastic. It's like a really casual panel, more like a conversation, a bunch of students and filmmakers/actors sitting around this lounge area with coffee and doughnuts having a conversation about whatever the topic of the day is. I also went to a Young Director's Forum, which was very intersting, and Bill Borden and Shawn Ku were there, and Shawn was adorable and really funny. And I went to this last-minute Screenwriters/Finding an Agent panel, and there were these two women there who were managers (as opposed to agents) and their little discussion was just so enlightening and great and I met them both afterward and gave them my card, which is always exciting. I tried to stay after the movies during the Q&As, which were pretty much all great, though of course there's always a person in the audience who asks a dumb question or embarrasses themself. Anyway, there were also several beautiful short films, which I won't name alll of, but I think North Atlantic was my favorite (also the writer/director is SO CUTE). That and Winter Frog (grenouille d'hiver). Of course I loved the two about death, but they were both beautiful, touching little stories. There were a couple good animated shorts and student shorts that I liked too.

SO, NOW, the film festival is over, and I get to sleep an extra hour tonight because of the stupid time change thing, and TOMORROW, I need to do the homework I haven't even had time to think about all week. Also tommorow will be a reading of my play on my school radio station. Which will (should) be fun! It was last year. But it also eats into my day because I'm going to be at the radio station for like 4 or 6 hours. D: But omg, once I get that done and my homework for Monday done, then I can CHILL a bit, because the rest of the quarter (JUST TWO WEEKS OMG) is much more relaxed. Haha, everyone was gearing up for the film fest and now we all gotta take a breath. I did have a chance to meet with my producer and OMG she walked into my apartment with the "how can I help you" attitude and when she walked out I felt like SUCH a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. She's great and I love her already.

Fandom-wise, I've been keeping track of things but haven't been able to participate much since I've been in movie theaters or lines ALL DAY EVERY DAY, but I am quite excited about this Adam + Queen thing going on tomorrow. There better be uploads ASAP, since I won't be home for it! Anyway, I've also missed writing a lot; [livejournal.com profile] sulwen and I were on a roll with our LBB (and... other things) and then I had to just abandon everything all week, so that kind of sucked. So next week we'll get back to writing and relaxing and omg I can't wait. It has been the MOST FUN. Also, Adam and Sauli are being the most precious about their anniversary right now on twitter and it's killing me with cute. I keep meaning to get back on lj more often but... well. I'm glad I can keep track of everyone via twitter, even if not many people on here are following me there.

my film

Oct. 26th, 2011 07:02 pm
silentdescant: (save my soul)
I have not rewritten my script yet. I'm kind of scared to open it. It only needs kind of minor rewrites, but... ahh, I'm just scared.

FILM! )

All in all, I'm... okay with where I'm at right now. I'm not panicked. I'm not super happy either, I feel really behind. Especially compared to other directors I've been talking to, but then again, my film is way shorter and much more simple... So I think I'm okay. We're shooting in mid-February (I think the second or third weekend?) and I have a bit of time left. O.O

So, I was also thinking... I'm going to have this indiegogo fundraising project, and I'll have to think of donation incentives for that, but I was also thinking about maybe writing fic in exchange for donations? What do you guys think of that? Like I said earlier, I basically have no concept of my budget, but if I want to shoot on 35mm film, that'll up the price a little. So I'm thinking I'll need to raise a couple thousand dollars at least, just for the film and processing and all that, plus a bit of production design and catering. What else costs money? Film festival entry fees, that does for sure. So yeah, I will be needing money! I will be having a fundraising website thing of some kind! I will probably also set up a paypal so I can get money directly that way instead of all the website fees! Tell me your thoughts.
silentdescant: (dirty sexy beaten loved)
title: Sex and Violence
pairing: Frank/Gerard
rating: NC-17
words: 2500
warning: rough sex, blood kink, violence
summary: Frank needs to work out a little anger.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: This is for the lovely and talented [livejournal.com profile] blue_soaring, who knew exactly which fic ideas would entice me. Happy belated birthday! ♥ ♥ ♥

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Sex and Violence )

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