with words I thought I'd never speak

so I had that FIRST mock tournament/filming thing! besides staying up until 2am and then waking up at 6:30, it was great! it didn't quite go how I expected it to, but I think we got some good footage that we can work with, and I was pretty impressed overall that we managed to MAKE a tournament with only about 100-150 people, since usually there are like, a LOT. there was this one dude that was seriously cute, one of the filming guys who volunteered, and he had an awesome hat and knew his shit about film, and we were flirting pretty hardcore all day, and I finally had to ask how old he was, just to make sure I wasn't hitting on a 17 year old or something. not that anything's gonna happen since uh, I'll probably never see him again but whatevs, flirting is fun.

and yesterday I went with my family to my dad's company picnic, and wow, they really went all out this year (more than the past few years, anyway). there were motorcycle people (crazy jumping CRAZY people) and the seattle knights group, who did jousting and swordfighting and that was really cool even though it looked very rehearsed. lol. I got sunburned, which was not cool. this is why I wear long sleeves all the time. :(

today we're taking my sister to college, which is on the other side of the mountains, so it's like 5 hours there and 5 hours back. so we're staying with her tonight and proooobably tomorrow night too. I'm kinda blah about it because I probably won't get any time online. :( :( :( but I will have my phone.

and I know a couple people have found it already, but I put my name in this meme! I haven't commented to anybody yet; I was planning on doing that this morning but I guess that'll have to wait. so... yeah. sorry. I have things to say to you! just not yet.

the ❝that's my favorite!❞ meme
A FANFICTION PRAISE MEME

and maryangel200 gave me actor and actress names for that other meme, but I don't have time to figure out all my favorite movies of them so that meme will have to wait too. I'm literally typing this while packing my sister's clothes. ugh I hate going out of tooooown. :( :( :(

here's some adam/tommy hotness to make this post a little happier.

( om nom nom )

1. The Periodic Table of Typefaces, which was passed around on twitter a while back but I just needed to mention it here too. AWESOME.

2. Pictures of bugs that I actually like! Sleeping insects covered in dew. Weird and alien and kind of gorgeous. (via @amandapalmer -- I know, I know)

3. Abandoned places: 10 creepy, beautiful modern ruins. I LOVE these photos. I haven't looked at them all in detail yet, but I think my favorite is the last one on the list, which is the teaser image as well. So pretty and yeah, creepy. (via tumblr)

4. The first bandombigbang story has been posted, Winds Will Move Us Around by maryangel200. Lovely and quiet, and pretty angsty too. I still need to download the mixes. (And I still don't have a posting date of my own. ughhh)

5. Daily Ampersands @ tumblr, which is very super cool. I love ampersands (a lot).

6. I posted this on tumblr/twitter last night, but it's a sketch I did during the first day with a model in life drawing. And speaking of life drawing, I need to get dressed and catch a bus before I'm late, ack! /o\

ps: when a milk carton says it will be good until the 10th, it should not be disgustingly sour on the 5th. I only bought it a few days ago! >:( ruined my breakfast.

pps: finished reading Nightswimming this morning and already I want to read Unholyverse again (which I read JUST before Nightswimming). It probably comes up the most often in my list of favorite fics to reread.

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in conlusion, I LOVE FRANK'S PRETTY FUCKING FACE.

1. i stayed up until 4am. WHY? whyyyy? i was writing shit, and it really is shit, it's completely self-indulgent crap that i don't even want to show anyone, and like, it was 2 and then i looked up and it was 3 and then i looked up again and it was 4 and i was like FUCK THIS, I NEED SLEEP. and therefore slept until 10:30 with an eyemask on because it was already getting lighter and fucking birds were ALREADY CHIRPING at 4am and so when i took it off, i was nearly BLINDED because even though it's overcast today, it's still BRIGHT AS FUCK. happily, i had a snuggly fluffy sleepy lump next to me. (side note: mcr, pls post pictures of various dogs in various guitar cases FOREVER.)

2. i just kept pressing snooze and only really woke up because i got a phone call. from my friend, who is in the recital, and who will be the only good thing about probably humiliating myself today. i've only been practicing this song for like, a week and a half, and i have it memorized again, but it's not... great. and i'm going to be wearing bright hot pink shirts and gigantic fuck-off heels that hurt my feet, and tights that undoubtedly make my thighs look huge, and a miniskirt. IS THAT 80s ENOUGH FOR YA? i've resigned myself to looking like an idiot, but i am going to OWN IT, BABY, and be comforted by the fact that the other costumes will be much more ridiculous than mine.

3. apparently some mcr fan has been spamming the entire band with a link to her fanfic, and she finally got one of them to respond. ray. i saw that and nearly died of motts, not even joking. and then i clicked it, saw gerard's name at the top, and was absolutely horrified. RAY, I'M SO SORRY. he actually read it, i think. I COULDN'T EVEN READ IT. i was too overcome by the motts. i just made disgusted noises and flapped my hands at my computer and tried to erase it from my brain. perhaps ray did the same.

4a. my dad and i watched the top gear goes to america episode, and i love watching top gear with him 'cause it actually makes him laugh for real, and it's so hilarious. i love top gear.

4b. since tomorrow's father's day and i don't have any kind of present at all, and my mom and sister are going to be gone all day, maybe i could take my dad out to see the hangover? it's the only movie i can think of that would be good. he's already seen star trek, we went to angels & demons a week or so ago, and UP is more of a whole-family type movie. and transformers = hell no. but i've heard good things about hangover. whaddya think?

4c. tomorrow is also my BBB POSTING DAAAAAAAY. so exciteddddddddd. omg, i'm so freaking excited, you don't even know. well, giddy_london probably knows. i am so happy with the fic, and the ART, and the MIX (which i have been listening to like, NONSTOP) and ahhhhh i am so ready to post this shit.

5. how completely ADORABLE is this? :D :D :D and i won! i was not expecting that at all. i almost didn't put my name in, that's how much i was not expecting to win. hahahaha. ♥____♥

A very general sort of update, since I haven't posted in FOREVER.

( In which I ramble on about drawing things. and Gerard. )

( and then about writing things, and classes! )

( bandom bandom bandom )

( photographic evidence of Frank and Gerard being RIDICULOUSLY PRETTY )

HAVE A NICE DAY. <3333!

OMG YOU GUYS. I AM BACK ONLINE, FINALLY.

I'm in my dorm, and internet is working now, and I've just set up my wireless. Today was my first day of classes, and there will be more of that later. In the meantime, I'M BACK ONLINE. I'M BAAAAACK ONLIIIIIIINE. *parties*

who would want to read billy/dom AU incest fic?

okay, assuming that's more than just raquel and megan... what should happen in this fic?

I don't have a plot, f-listers. I have scenes, but no plot. help?

Warning: RAMBLING AHEAD OMG. You might regret asking me stuff. Just so ya know.

Choose 7 of my interests for me to talk about, and/or ask me to choose 7 of your interests for you to talk about (either in your own post or in comments).

from wonder_walldbc:

( astronomy, freedom of speech, billy boyd, lyrics, the beatles, dom's hands, raquel )

from random_yayness:

( bdsm, germany, jears, not yet, space, traveling, ocean )

1) OMG SHOEBOX. OMG OMG OMG.

2) I was going to post the next chapter of De Divinatione either today or yesterday, but as I was writing it (and it's way longer now, btw), I discovered a NEW PLOT POINT, so I'm now in the process of going back and revising the first few chapters. LOL

3) I registered for summer classes! Pop Culture and that moviemaking one, which is gonna be SO AWESOME. And the Pop Culture one is online, so I'll only have to physically go to the production meetings for the movie. Which I'm sure aren't going to be early in the morning. YAY. AND, I put in my housing request at SCAD. WOO!

4) Raquel just showed me this, and it is AWESOME.

5) Only one more week of body boot camp. I've survived so far. Sort of. And as of Monday, I'm starting Weight Watchers again. >.<

eta: 6) I JUST WROTE A FICLET. It's Raquel's fault. And that cute webcomic site's. (side note about fic-ish things: I need to repost what I did for m_m, and update my index, and post the next chapter of DD)

EEEEEK.

spider on my desk.

there was, anyway.

now, dead spider in the trash can.

/random freakout post