with words I thought I'd never speak

This journal is going Friends Only. But only partly. I've started locking all most of my personal entries (but I haven't gone through my past entries to lock those--at least not yet). All of my fic and fan-related things will remain unlocked. There isn't any one reason for me doing this, but it's something I've been considering for a while.

As for friending me: I love having friends, seriously. Don't feel like you have to comment here and ask permission to friend me or anything, but keep in mind I might not friend you back. You're welcome to watch just for my fic, though.

If you do want me to friend you back, say so in a comment or something, so I won't spam up your flist if you're just here for the fic. :)

it's been a little while, huh. to anyone still using lj, i just wanted to do a little life & fandom update, so you know where to find me.

life: i moved to LA a couple years ago (the florida thing didn't last) and i made some fandom friends that cross over into real life, and that's pretty awesome. i still do robot things and i try to do video things now and i write every single day even if i don't post the results very often. i do a bunch of fandom things irl now, which used to terrify me. i've been to spn cons and more concerts than i can count and i've done gishwhes and participated in events and met up with so many people and it's great.

fandom: i'm big into supernatural and pentatonix and youtubers right now, but of course i'll always hold my past fandoms dear. if you're looking for me online, you can find me mostly on twitter and tumblr these days, and surely you know where to find my fic (archiveofourown). i have a wattpad account that i use to read but i don't post there because the platform horrifies me a little bit (so if you spot me there, yes, that is me, but look me up elsewhere). consistent branding: i'm still silentdescant everywhere that matters.

i had a moment yesterday where i had a hard time believing i've been active in fandom for just over a decade now. i created this lj in 2006 so i could read and post fanfic, and i made friends back then that i still have now. that's just wild. thanks for sticking with me, those of you who have. i've definitely grown up. and now i'm all sentimental, aww. i do miss this platform sometimes, but i gotta go where the community is, and right now that's tumblr. so find me there. love you.


ETA 10/2: I said I wasn't posting to wattpad. This has changed. Goddammit. A friend convinced me to start using it for real, and now all my PTX fic is crossposted there, because that's where the fandom is. It's still horrible in many ways, but at least people are finding my fic now. :)

So, I haven't posted anything in quite a while! I keep meaning to fix that, but my life is pretty boring lately and I'm not even writing much to make up for it. But I did see Iron Man 3 today, and I had far too many feelings (and spoilers) for twitter. So, a reaction/review post!

( IM3 spoilers ahead! )

title: What I Want
pairing: Harvey/Mike
rating: NC-17
words: 2159
warning: BDSM, Dom/Sub, Office Sex, Blindfolds, Gags, Humiliation, Orgasm Delay/Denial, Comeplay
summary: It didn’t matter that the office was utterly empty, that all the lights were off except those in Harvey’s office, Mike still felt exposed and on display, standing naked in a room with glass walls.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: This is for sulwen. She and I had a little challenge today: write each other a 1.5k fic based on a vague prompt. She wanted Harvey being dominant, so I pretty much had free rein. I did fail at limiting myself to 1.5k, though. Oops. The fic she wrote for me, Smooth As, also exceeded that wordcount, and it is Jeff/Jensen for my prompt of shaving, and can be found here. (It's super hot and sweet, check it out.)

read it on ao3

title: Old Enough
pairing: Jeff/Jensen
rating: NC-17
words: 3179
warning: prostitution, underage sex, underage drinking, mild dub-con
summary: "How old are you, sweetheart?”

“Seventeen."

“More than old enough for me.”
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: For the "prostitution/sex work" square on my kink bingo card.

Old Enough on ao3

title: Casting Couch
pairing: Jensen/OMC, Jared
rating: NC-17
words: 1375
warning: dub-con, sexual coercion
summary: Jensen recalls a time when it wasn't so easy.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: This scenario's been in my head a while, so I figured I should probably go ahead and write it down. Thank you always to sulwen for listening to all my ideas.

Casting Couch on ao3

I haven't signed up yet because I want to figure out an idea to write before I commit, but I wanted to put this here, because I always want more John or Jeff fic.



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I think I mentioned the one-day film challenge (Crash Cinema) in my last post? Well, I did that. The film we made in 8(ish) hours came out kind of ridiculous but not terrible. Hopefully amusing. It was for the theme of Argo (that new Ben Affleck movie), and we had to incorporate a bunch of stuff into it. Anyway, I went to the press screening of Argo on Monday and LOVED it, and our short film is showing before the premiere of Argo tonight, so I'm going to see it again! This time with the whole red carpet dealio (lol). I might come back with more thoughts later, but for now I'll just say that I really enjoyed the movie, and that it was very tense at times but surprisingly hilarious at times too. Definitely not a "funny" movie, but lighthearted enough to break up the crazy tension and time pressure. Really good, though; I recommend it.

Last night, I watched Devour. Purely because of Jensen. (The things I do for him...) Reactions: 1) LOL 2) no really, LOL, what is that thing? 3) there is some terrible acting going on here 4) holy god, Jensen is pretty 5) he just can't escape the hell, devil, possession, psychopath shit, can he? Okay, honestly, it wasn't as terrible as I was expecting it to be, but I had some pretttttty low expectations. Jensen was about the only good thing in it, and I'm glad he was the star because if he'd only shown up in a couple of scenes, I don't know that I could've gotten through it. I loved all his little bb psychopath moments. Had to hide my eyes when he was cutting off his tongue, though. D: I came out of that movie just wanting someone to edit together that footage with SPN footage to make a video about young!Dean. It fits pretty well, right?

I've seen New York Minute (ridiculous, but I grew up watching Mary Kate & Ashley movies, so that wasn't as terrible as I thought it would be), so next up is Christmas Cottage. I will admit, I don't have high hopes. lol sorry, Jared, it just doesn't look like my type of movie. I do like Thomas Kinkade in real life, though. I will give it a shot.

How awesome was SPN 8.02, btw? FUCKING AWESOME. Can't wait for the next one. Is it Wednesday yet?

Other things: I keep calling the job to find out the schedule for my training and they keep not calling me back. UGH, I WANT TO START ALREADY. Hopefully I'm about to pick up another job, though: teaching kids robotics like I did this summer, except year-round. Yay? Yay money and robots, at least. And finally, I'm trying to get back in the habit of checking my f-list and posting here, so keep on top of me to do that. In the meantime, you know where to find me (on twitter. always. constantly. forever.). Oh, I'm writing a bit more too. Trying to finish a kink_bingo fic that keeps growing. Hopefully I can wrap that up soon. And who's excited for NaNoWriMo? I think I'm settling on an idea, now I just want to START it. \o/

title: Full Circle
authors: sulwen and silentdescant
pairing: Jeff/Jensen, past Jensen/Danneel
rating: NC-17
words: 8065
warning: break-up
summary: Danneel and Jensen break up; Jensen goes to Jeff for comfort.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: this started out as off the cuff h/c fic and turned into 8k of porn. oops? I don't think we've ever written something together that HASN'T turned into porn, tbh.

Full Circle on ao3

title: Foxhole
pairing: Dean/Benny
rating: NC-17
words: 1105
warning: SPOILERS for 8.01; show-level violence
summary: Dean's quick. Quiet and agile and lightning-fast. Hard to catch.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved. Characters are not mine.
a/n: I couldn't even wait a day after the episode before writing Dean/Benny fic. Link goes to ao3; I'll add Benny in the pairing tag tomorrow (didn't want to spoil people for his existence quite yet if they're subscribed to me there).

Foxhole on ao3