with words I thought I'd never speak

Well, it is a new year. It is the year of graduation and jobs and a new place to live. It is also the year of new music and tour from Adam, which I am REALLY excited about. I don't expect new music from MCR, but I'm still holding out hope for videos and comics and whatever else those boys come up with (I can't imagine they'll hibernate for long). I want to do things like eat healthier and lose weight (I did both this past year, but it's hard to stick to, and I want to get better at the sticking to it part). I also want to be more social (I definitely started that this past year, but I can do better), and meet some online friends, now that I know some people in kind-of-my area. I want to write more, although that sounds silly when you read onto this next bit of the post. I want to write some original fic, though, and that's always hard to stick to, for me.

But check this out. I was going to do that end of the year fic meme that I saw a couple people fill out, but it wasn't working for me, so I just tallied things up instead. I wrote and posted 46 fics, two of which were co-written with sulwen (and one of those was for the sick!Frank challenge at yobrothatssick). One was a 41k fic for lambliffbigbang and one was a 25k fic for bandombigbang. 15 fics were for the summer fill fest at glam_kink (and they're having a new year fill fest now, you should check that out). But this is the really shocking (to me) part: my wordcount totals.

solo posted fic: 122,053
posted fic with sulwen: 20,883
(which brings my total posted fic to 142,936 words)

But that's not all. I mean, I am SHOCKED that I wrote more than 120k this year on my own. But listen to this. sulwen and I were both signed up for LBB again, and we both had problems with our fics, and on the very same day, we both planned to drop out of the challenge (which I hate doing). So to keep from dropping out, we teamed up and started outlining the fic we had both dreamed of, the one nobody would ever in a million years write for us. This was in October. Since then (and the fic is only about 80% finished so far), we have written about 124,500 words together on it. That's almost the same as I wrote solo all year. My mind was blown. Especially once I added all my writing solo and with her together: 267,436. That is a fucking ridiculous amount of words, you guys. I'm pretty pleased. It's hard for me to even remember writing all those fics earlier in the year, because our LBB took over my life, and I can't even think about what it was like before it wasn't a part of my life. That and all our notfic which we desperately want to write but can't until LBB is finished. Finding an amazing writing partner is pretty much the best thing ever. We are constantly inspired to write more.

So for the new year, the pressure is on. We have to finish our LBB by our posting date in January, and we each have a bandomreversebb fic to work on, and I have to get everything together to shoot my film in February (and March). And then I have to find a job and a place to live and graduate, holy fuck. More immediately: I have to pack. I've been home since Thanksgiving and I'm heading back to Savannah at ass o'clock in the morning tomorrow. Then all that other shit can start.

Overall, I think it's been a great year. But I have high hopes for this next one. :)


btw, all of my bandom and glam fic is up at archive of our own, and all my cowritten fic with sulwen is and will be posted there exlusively. I will probably keep posting solo fic there and here on lj for the foreseeable future. If I ever get the time, I'll work on transferring all my lotrips fic over to AO3 as well, so everything can be in one place, but who knows when that will happen. :P

♥

title: Sex and Violence
pairing: Frank/Gerard
rating: NC-17
words: 2500
warning: rough sex, blood kink, violence
summary: Frank needs to work out a little anger.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: This is for the lovely and talented blue_soaring, who knew exactly which fic ideas would entice me. Happy belated birthday! ♥ ♥ ♥

on ao3


( Sex and Violence )

Title: Keep Running
Author: silentdescant
Band(s): MCR (Killjoys AU)
Pairing(s): Frank/Gerard
Word Count: 25,300
Rating/Warnings: rape, minor character death, graphic violence
Summary: The Killjoys love doing as much damage to BL/ind as they can, and until now, they've been lucky enough to avoid getting caught by Korse and his draculoid followers. But Korse's mission isn't to just kill them, it's to hurt them—hurt Gerard. And to do that, he uses Frank. After a traumatic, death-defying escape, Frank sets out with the guys to get revenge. In between the car chases and the gunfights, Frank has to let himself heal and figure how to return Gerard's feelings.
Notes: This is definitely an AU of the Killjoys universe MCR has created with their videos, so I'm just warning you in advance, this isn't fully compliant with everything we've seen. Huge thank you to bexless for being an awesome and enthusiastic beta, and thank you to philosiraptors and spuzz for giving me so much encouragement and inspiration while I was writing. ♥



Bonus Tracks/Enhanced Content

Fanart:
Four Illustrations by xanax_n_wine

Fanmix:
Chemistry of a Car Crash by dwg

Four illustrations by xanax_n_wine

( excerpts and art )

OMG. So... I saw My Chemical Romance for the first time. It was my first rock show, and it was my first time seeing MCR, and it was my first time SKIPPING CLASS (lol, I'm such a good girl) and it was amazing. My pictures are kinda crap but that's okay, I know other people took better ones. I think I sent everything I took to twitter, so I'll just link to them there. PREPARE FOR LOTS AND LOTS OF RAMBLING. no, srsly, this is like 5,800 words of rambling (oh my god, self, r u srs?). I tried to kinda divide it into sections so it's not just a giant wall of text, lol. SO, HERE WE GO.


( the day before, preparing the day of, and the line )

( before the show, The Architects, Thursday, drunk lady )

( the show, random observations, THE BOYS ARE GORGEOUS, lots and lots of Frank, this is the section with tweets and pictures and the stuff you actually care about )

( merch/the pit )

( after the concert )

( the next day )


I'm still pretty sore, I have a blue bruise on my arm, and I'm still tired. My ears aren't fully back to normal yet. I lost 2.5 pounds (lol yay). I wrote a TON of notes to myself last night and I think I covered pretty much everything I meant to. I just rambled SO MUCH, this is ridiculous.

I'm SO GLAD MCR was my first rock show experience. It was an amazing, amazing show, with SO MANY of my absolute favorite songs, and I got really close to the barrier in front of my favorite person (somewhere close to this person because while I didn't get the water, I was right there next to where he threw it), and it was just... amazing. Awesome, in the true sense of the word. The crowd was, for the most part, really excellent to each other, and I pushed myself way past my comfort zone of not touching people and enjoyed the hell out of it, and being in the pit at a rock show was one of my ~life experiences I needed to do before, y'know, I die, and I did it at my VERY FIRST SHOW, with my VERY FAVORITE BAND. I just can't even. I'm so grateful for the whole experience. I WOULD do it again, but maybe not for MCR if I see them again soon, because the next time I see them (BECAUSE I WILL SEE THEM AGAIN, I MUST), I think I want to be in the balcony or something, where there's a little more breathing room and I can actually focus on the stage and not just surviving, you know? But now that I know I CAN survive the pit, it's definitely something I would do again. SO MUCH LOVE. Thank you guys so much for your concert tips, I really really appreciated it so much (lol I'm such a crazy person about being unprepared) and I'm sorry I didn't get to hang out with ppl more before or after (erraticonstilts, I wish we'd been able to meet! dancinbutterfly, we shall have to hang out sometime later!), but it was just really fantastic overall. Amazing experience.



PS:
THE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL MEME
my thread: here.

Everyone's been making rec lists for MCR fandom, like, all the must-read stories for newbies. Pretty much everything I would rec has already been recced, SO I decided to do something a little different. I have been told that I write D/s fic pretty well (♥!), but there's some excellent stuff out there that I love to read and reread and reread, fics that inspire me and that I've learned from, so, here's a list of those. It says "multifandom" in the subject line, but it's really only the fandoms and pairings I like, so don't go expecting something varied and diverse. Also, everything here is NC-17 unless otherwise noted.

title: Choice
pairing: Frank/Mikey, Gerard/Frank/Mikey
rating: PG-13/R
words: 1460
warning: incest
summary: Frank can't keep his crush a secret.
disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Don't Google yourself.
a/n: This is for sleepingcities, for the waysplusone fic exchange. I hope you like it. :D?


( Choice )