with words I thought I'd never speak

Yesterday was my birthday! It was pretty great, just sat around reading fic for most of the day. I still have no job. BUT my film, which was indeed finished, was accepted into a film festival in Sacramento! I am SO EXCITED. \o/!!!! Heading down there mid-August for that, hopefully I can do a lot of networking and talking to people. Still need a job. D:

I have totally failed at keeping up with LJ, I'm sorry. /o\ I really do need to get better about it, I miss LJ. Twitter is still my home, at the moment. In my absence from LJ, I forgot to mention here that I have posted fic! You probably already saw it if you're on twitter or subscribe to me on AO3.

The first, written with sulwen, is the first part of the mpreg omega fic we've been talking about for aaaaages. Adam as the pack's Alpha, Tommy as the only fertile Omega. Kinks include knotting, obviously, and dubcon that goes with the trope, as well as mpreg, underage sex, and some incest (more of that to come in future parts). Born This Way

The second is some very off the cuff Jared/Jensen porn with some of my usual kinks: D/s, comeplay, breathplay... But it's basically fluff. First time really trying out writing J2, which I hope to do lots more. Oh, Baby, Baby

And finally, I wanted to say that sulwen and I have found our next big passion project. We're getting a very early start on next year's spn_j2_bigbang... which is still posting right now for this year, sign ups won't even open for a while yet. But we're REALLY EXCITED. We've been messing around with a lot of ideas, even some original fic, outlining and dabbling and brainstorming, but nothing has felt URGENT in the way this idea does. It's really really great to have that need to tell a story again. And it's probably a good thing we're starting early because lol we can already tell this is gonna be looooong. :D We definitely feel better this way than doing what we did with LBB, jumping into it at the last minute with a 160k fic and not getting it beta'd until like, the day before posting... hahaha hopefully with starting this far in advance, things will fall into place a little easier.

ps: my Jack is the cutest puppy in the entire world, I swear.

Title: When Love Fails
Author: silentdescant & sulwen
Artist: rude_bunny
Betas: isweedan & pussy_in_person
Type: Drama
Word Count: 160,000
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Adam/Tommy, Adam/multiple OMCs, Tommy/OFC, Tommy/multiple OMCs, past Adam/Brad
Warnings: Angst, Suicidal Ideation, Drug and Alcohol Addiction, Infidelity, Dubious Consent, Drug Overdose, Severe Main Character Injury, Depression, Eating Disorder, Unsafe Sex, Violence, Multiple Partners, Explicit Heterosexual Sex, Homophobia, Vomiting, Jealousy, Physical and Verbal Fighting, Hospitalization, Body Dysmorphia, Coming Out Publicly, BDSM (D/s specifically), Breathplay, Humiliation, Orgasm Control, Belting, Bloodplay, Knifeplay, Bondage, Pain Kink, Semi-Public Sex, Rough/Angry Sex, Unhealthy/Unsafe Expressions of All Above Kinks.

Summary: What starts as rebound sex quickly turns into a downward spiral of co-dependent addiction. Adam and Tommy both bring heavy baggage to their relationship: Adam is being pushed harder and harder every day by an unsympathetic manager and is starting to long for the no-consequences life of anonymity he’s left behind, while Tommy carries the weight of a string of infidelities and personal insecurities. Their relationship takes them to a darker place than either of them could have imagined.



Link to fic master post: on archiveofourown
Link to art master post: here
Link to mix master post: here

title: Treasure
pairing: Adam/Tommy
rating: NC-17
words: 1400
warning: bondage, fluff
summary: Tommy’s laced up like a ballerina in pointed shoes.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: this is for sulwen, because it was inspired by a series of kind of graphic text messages. and a special thank you to random_yayness for telling me how to make blowjobs hot. because apparently I forgot. ♥

on ao3


( Treasure )

title: Working
pairing: Adam/Tommy/Brad
rating: PG-13
words: 380
warning: established threesome, reference to power dynamics
summary: Things are fine, but not without a little work.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: Happenstance ficlet! A little glimpse into their relationship. Inspired by Brad building hype for his new webseries.

on ao3


( Working )

title: Glittering Gold
pairing: Tommy/Taylor/Terrance + Adam
rating: NC-17
words: 2380
warning: object penetration, figging (kind of), slavery
summary: for this prompt on Glam_Kink: Lord Lambert likes fucking his boys when they're already ready and open for him, so he orders Taylor and Terrance, his loyal servants, to prepare Tommy. They bath him, finger him and fuck him with something other than a conventional sex toy.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: "object penetration" for kink_bingo, woo! and this is my last fic, just under the wire, for G_K's summer fill fest.

on ao3


( Glittering Gold )

title: Life
pairing: Adam/Tommy
rating: R
words: 742
warning: D/s, bloodplay, cutting, scars
summary: for this prompt on Glam_Kink: Something involving knifeplay and handcuffs. Dominant Adam.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: Also for my kink_bingo square of "scars/scarification"

on ao3


( Life )

title: Never Kiss and Tell
pairing: Tommy/Brad
rating: R
words: 1040
warning: some unresolved sexual tension... :P
summary: For this prompt on Glam_Kink, asking for Brad/Tommy romance.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: I have this square on my kink_bingo card and I had no idea how to approach it... "vanilla kink". And then I wrote this kind of by accident. :)

on ao3


( Never Kiss and Tell )

title: Broken Hearted
pairing: Tommy/OFC, Isaac/Sophie
rating: PG-13
words: 450
warning: breakup angst
summary: For this prompt on Glam_Kink. Tommy's thought she was the one.
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.

on ao3


( Broken Hearted )

title: Dream Boy
pairing: Adam/Tommy
rating: NC-17
words: 2010
warning: fisting, restraints, little bit of self-fisting, come play, mild D/s
summary: for the very succinct prompt on Glam_Kink of "Adam/Tommy, fisting"
disclaimer: Very untrue. Don't google yourself. Don't pass this along to anyone involved.
a/n: I'm on a roll with these prompts! I'm gonna go ahead and use "fisting" for my free square on kink_bingo. It's a pity more of these g_k prompts don't fit with my k_b card. If you find some that do, let me know. :P

on ao3


( Dream Boy )

i made a comment on twitter today during a conversation about icons about how i... never have any icons. and SOMEBODY was lurky and gave me a shit ton of icon space. SO THIS IS A GRATUITOUS ICON POST. i looked through a couple posts of icons but only found a few that really struck me, so i decided to just MAKE MY OWN, and i don't even have a photo editing software, so they're kinda crap, but OMG I'M SO HAPPY WITH THEM, just the fact that they are people i talk about all the time and i FINALLY HAVE ICONS OF THEM!

hello new tommy default. one of my favorite pictures. :DDD i also added an adam/tommy one, an adam/brad one, and a solo brad one. i mean, they're all just the pictures i had handy on my desktop with the colors fucked with a little so i might not keep them for long, but omgggg. new icons. :D i already don't recognize myself in comments. O.O i'm really really happy to finally have icons for this fandom, but i never wanted to give up any of my mcr or dominic icons. i will have to search for some more glam fandom icon makers. :DDDDD

i know more people follow me on twitter than on here, so idk if mystery!anon is on my flist? but THANK YOU. ♥ ♥ ♥