with words I thought I'd never speak

Title: When Love Fails
Author: silentdescant & sulwen
Artist: rude_bunny
Betas: isweedan & pussy_in_person
Type: Drama
Word Count: 160,000
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Adam/Tommy, Adam/multiple OMCs, Tommy/OFC, Tommy/multiple OMCs, past Adam/Brad
Warnings: Angst, Suicidal Ideation, Drug and Alcohol Addiction, Infidelity, Dubious Consent, Drug Overdose, Severe Main Character Injury, Depression, Eating Disorder, Unsafe Sex, Violence, Multiple Partners, Explicit Heterosexual Sex, Homophobia, Vomiting, Jealousy, Physical and Verbal Fighting, Hospitalization, Body Dysmorphia, Coming Out Publicly, BDSM (D/s specifically), Breathplay, Humiliation, Orgasm Control, Belting, Bloodplay, Knifeplay, Bondage, Pain Kink, Semi-Public Sex, Rough/Angry Sex, Unhealthy/Unsafe Expressions of All Above Kinks.

Summary: What starts as rebound sex quickly turns into a downward spiral of co-dependent addiction. Adam and Tommy both bring heavy baggage to their relationship: Adam is being pushed harder and harder every day by an unsympathetic manager and is starting to long for the no-consequences life of anonymity he’s left behind, while Tommy carries the weight of a string of infidelities and personal insecurities. Their relationship takes them to a darker place than either of them could have imagined.



Link to fic master post: on archiveofourown
Link to art master post: here
Link to mix master post: here

Title: Take A Step Before You Leap
Author: silentdescant
Artist: qafmaniac
Type: Romance
Word Count: 41,500
Rating: NC-17
Characters/Pairings: Adam/Tommy
Warnings: Canon drug use, internalized homophobia, consent play, verbal descriptions of a rape fantasy.
Summary: Tommy has always insisted he's straight, but he’s an open-minded guy. He has all kinds of friends, and he doesn’t judge any of their actions or preferences. So why is it so difficult for him to accept his own attraction to Adam? This is the story of their relationship, from the first audition to the end of the tour.



Notes: First of all, I need to give a few very special thank-yous to my betas: andlightplay, for plot discussion and cheerleading; ciel_vert, for fact-checking all of this canon; and random_yayness for helping me fix everything and clean it up at the last minute. I couldn't have done it without these ladies. ♥ I also have to thank lambliffhistory and the awesome people at rat_bert for supplying such detailed information. And finally, thank you so very much to my artist, qafmaniac, who turned out some truly awesome graphics for this fic. Check out her art post for more!

This fic has driven me absolutely crazy over the past few months, and I'm so glad to finally be able to share it with you. It's a story that's been in my head since I joined this fandom. I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I've enjoyed writing it. :)