with words I thought I'd never speak

First of all, ART AGAIN. I kinda finished that Gerard/Mikey VMan sketch. Tried to fix Gerard a little, though probably not enough. And what is up with Gerard's GIGANTIC HAIR in that picture? Mikey's not nearly as easy for me to draw as Gerard is, for some reason, so he's kind of crap. At least this time I had an eraser and a pencil sharpener. Again, click for bigger.



Anyway, today was pretty boring. I made the trek out to CVS for blank DVDs, and then I just came back and played a million rounds of sudoku while halfheartedly cleaning my desk and listening to The Attack of the Unsinkable Rubber Ducks by Christopher Brookmyre, narrated by Billy Boyd. I highly recommend this book (this audiobook especially, because BILLY! He does really great voices!). I think it's awesome. It's about a psychic and trying to figure out if and how he's tricking people, and it kind of delves into science vs religion as well, which I enjoy but may not be to your taste if you're really religious. But I can't really do much while I'm listening to audiobooks, I pretty much have to sit there and listen otherwise I can't pay attention. Hence the sudoku and finishing that drawing. I have about an hour of the book left to listen to.

After everybody gets back from improv (at 11, I think), we're going to film really quick (REALLY QUICK, OMG I FUCKING HOPE) and then I have to dash across town to the library and edit and burn a DVD (probably until the library closes at 1am). And I have to figure out how to return equipment at 7pm tomorrow when I have class from 5-7:30. They might possibly take it at 4:30 after my previous class, but idk. And if not, I have to leave class early. UGH I HATE THE CAGE.

OH MY GOD IT'S TIME FOR bandombigbang AGAIN! I'm ridiculously excited, even though I don't know what I'm going to write. I signed up for Wave Two, because 1) it gives me a bit more time and I'm not afraid of the higher wordcount, and 2) the deadlines actually fit into my calendar a bit better. I'm still thinking about signing up to do art as well, but I keep going back and forth. It would be fun, but I don't even know what I'm writing yet, or how intensive it will be towards the end, but art probably won't take me AGES to finish, but all the deadlines coincide with writer deadlines so I'd need to be on the ball... I really kinda want to do it, though. :| :| :|

I chatted with wonder_walldbc about my screenplay idea, and got to talking about BBB as well, and I convinced her to go ahead and sign up too. I might possibly continue to write my NaNo fic, which was mainly Frank/Jamia, orrrr I might drag another old WIP out of my fathomless file of unfinished fic, or I might try to write something new, I don't know. I'm leaning towards the Frank/Jamia fic, though. Or one of the others. Maybe the slave one, I love that fic. :D :D :D I AM SO EXCITED. We're now discussing her plot ideas. I'm excited for her fic too. :D :D :D :D :D I love BBB season.

This has reminded me, however, that the no_tags deadline is coming up REALLY FUCKING FAST and I haven't even gotten to the meat of my fic yet. I'm probably just under halfway. Just need to get my ass in gear. There's absolutely no reason for me to be procrastinating on this fic. And yet I am.

I've been struggling with an idea for my screeplay class for three days, and I think Megan and I finally got something solid I can move forward with. Or at least approach my professor with. All the other ideas I had were just ideas, and not plots, which is my whole problem. When I'm writing fic, I get an idea and I write it, and as I develop the characters, the plot naturally comes out. For this class, he wants us to plan everything out beforehand, and I don't normally work that way, so coming up with the plot first was hard. But I've got something I like, so I think I'm good.

I do still need to write a little tiny webisode script for my lighting and field class, but that only needs to be like, 5 pages or something super short like that. And it only needs to be episode 1 of a series which we don't have to write. heh. :\ LOTS OF WRITING TO GET DONE. I still need to 1) read my screenplay book and 2) write a book report on it, but that deadline is very flexible; the guy just said "get it done, uh... when you have time..." because he knows nobody likes reading textbooks. lol

Ben's shoot went well; hung out with him and undersea after, and even chatted with her a bit once I got back to my room (I'm amused by this, since we're just a parking lot away from each other), and I'm sorta planning on going to improv with them tomorrow night. If things go well.

ETA: Frank is the most ridiculously adorable ever.

( frank frank frank, JUST BECAUSE I CAN )

Because I know you guys are sooo interested... And I'm posting it before it's been graded because I don't care what my teacher says about it, I'm pretty proud of it. It's pretty short, as far as research papers go (slightly over 2000 words), but it's kind of dense, so. :\




( the paper )


( works cited and bibliography [this is CRAZY LONG] )


So that's a research paper in, like, what, three days? /o\ I had to pretty much start over from scratch after the draft I sent in. Now I only have one more discussion to post and I am DONE with this class. And pretty much done with art history! \o/

1. i stayed up until 4am. WHY? whyyyy? i was writing shit, and it really is shit, it's completely self-indulgent crap that i don't even want to show anyone, and like, it was 2 and then i looked up and it was 3 and then i looked up again and it was 4 and i was like FUCK THIS, I NEED SLEEP. and therefore slept until 10:30 with an eyemask on because it was already getting lighter and fucking birds were ALREADY CHIRPING at 4am and so when i took it off, i was nearly BLINDED because even though it's overcast today, it's still BRIGHT AS FUCK. happily, i had a snuggly fluffy sleepy lump next to me. (side note: mcr, pls post pictures of various dogs in various guitar cases FOREVER.)

2. i just kept pressing snooze and only really woke up because i got a phone call. from my friend, who is in the recital, and who will be the only good thing about probably humiliating myself today. i've only been practicing this song for like, a week and a half, and i have it memorized again, but it's not... great. and i'm going to be wearing bright hot pink shirts and gigantic fuck-off heels that hurt my feet, and tights that undoubtedly make my thighs look huge, and a miniskirt. IS THAT 80s ENOUGH FOR YA? i've resigned myself to looking like an idiot, but i am going to OWN IT, BABY, and be comforted by the fact that the other costumes will be much more ridiculous than mine.

3. apparently some mcr fan has been spamming the entire band with a link to her fanfic, and she finally got one of them to respond. ray. i saw that and nearly died of motts, not even joking. and then i clicked it, saw gerard's name at the top, and was absolutely horrified. RAY, I'M SO SORRY. he actually read it, i think. I COULDN'T EVEN READ IT. i was too overcome by the motts. i just made disgusted noises and flapped my hands at my computer and tried to erase it from my brain. perhaps ray did the same.

4a. my dad and i watched the top gear goes to america episode, and i love watching top gear with him 'cause it actually makes him laugh for real, and it's so hilarious. i love top gear.

4b. since tomorrow's father's day and i don't have any kind of present at all, and my mom and sister are going to be gone all day, maybe i could take my dad out to see the hangover? it's the only movie i can think of that would be good. he's already seen star trek, we went to angels & demons a week or so ago, and UP is more of a whole-family type movie. and transformers = hell no. but i've heard good things about hangover. whaddya think?

4c. tomorrow is also my BBB POSTING DAAAAAAAY. so exciteddddddddd. omg, i'm so freaking excited, you don't even know. well, giddy_london probably knows. i am so happy with the fic, and the ART, and the MIX (which i have been listening to like, NONSTOP) and ahhhhh i am so ready to post this shit.

5. how completely ADORABLE is this? :D :D :D and i won! i was not expecting that at all. i almost didn't put my name in, that's how much i was not expecting to win. hahahaha. ♥____♥

1. GO READ THE THIRD INSTALLMENT OF UNHOLYVERSE. and if you haven't read Unholyverse, GO DO THAT. It is by bexless and it is amazing and owns my soul. Even if you're not into bandom at all, you should read this fic. It is seriously that amazing. It's like C-verse for lotrips, only with less kinky sex. hahaha

2. I don't think I posted about this (though I twittered/facebooked/flailed at people in gchat), but I FINALLLLLLLY finished writing my BBB fic. Yeah, I know it's almost the end of the month, shut up. IT WILL GET EDITED, I SWEAR. Just.... very very quickly. :\ BUT IT'S DONE, and that's the point, and it's something like 57k and it's EPIC, OKAY, and I am still in love with it and cannot WAIT for you guys to read it.

3. I reinstalled my drivers and managed to fix my audio and DVD-player computer issues. THEREFORE: LOTMS TONIGHT. It was great, and the video wasn't even jumpy and stuttery. I LOVE THIS BAND.

( 4. I fucked up my journal layout, sorry; 5. school is so close to being done I can taste it. )

6. I still have 2 Dreamwidth invite codes. Comment or send me a message with your email address if you want one.

CHECK OUT MY JOURNAL LAYOUT! it was stressful, oh so stressful, as I fear change of this magnitude, but I LIKE HOW IT'S COMING OUT! it still needs some tweaking, and I'm not sure how I feel about the bright blue link color, but but but, it's DIFFERENT, and I'm OKAY WITH THAT. it will definitely take some getting used to, though. I've had that other style for like, 2 years or something, idek.

I have Gerard and Lindsey in my header and that is pretty awesome. the text was done by Raquel, who is brilliant and reads my mind and stuff, and she helped me a TON with putting this whole layout thing together. I am kind of sad that it doesn't have Frank at all, but maybe in my tweaking I will find a way to put him and maybe others in, idk.

ALSO, Laura is coming to visit me TOMORROOOOOW. (technically today, but whatevs.) my first time meeting online peoples! I think we're gonna get dinner at a place called Corleone's, how awesome is that?

A very general sort of update, since I haven't posted in FOREVER.

( In which I ramble on about drawing things. and Gerard. )

( and then about writing things, and classes! )

( bandom bandom bandom )

( photographic evidence of Frank and Gerard being RIDICULOUSLY PRETTY )

HAVE A NICE DAY. <3333!

I believe a few of you know of my sudden and increasing love for My Chemical Romance, but that's not been the only reason for my LJ absence lately (though it has contributed). I've actually been really busy these past few weeks, with midterms and my boyfriend coming down for a visit, and Halloween (which is apparently a huge deal here at SCAD. It goes on for like, a week before and after the 31st, in all seriousness), not to mention my continued battle over transfer credits with the admissions people.

Classes are going pretty well, and I've registered for next quarter already (Color Theory, Art History II, and Public Speaking), but because they're so project-based, it takes a lot of time to do homework. It has been pretty awesome having art projects as homework, though, I must admit. Class was cancelled yesterday, and my entire hall was so happy about it... We all slept in, and I slept for ELEVEN HOURS. It was amazing. I've been staying up far too late and waking up far too early lately.

There's also some drama going on with my friends, mostly involving my roommate and her now-ex-boyfriend, and Mike's immaturity with drinking and drugs getting my my nerves. Other than that, though, I've been getting closer to some of the people I really like, and I don't feel like as much of an outsider, which is definitely a good feeling. I spent all yesterday with one of my roommates, and that was really fun. We get along really well, even though we're so different.

In fandom news, I'm now obsessed with My Chem, after a looooong period of me resisting bandom and half of my f-list falling hard for it. So now I've fallen hard, oh so hard. I've been reading some amazing fics, watching youtube religiously, and even writing bandom fic. I've also signed up for slashababy, and I'm nowhere near abandoning lotrips, so don't worry about that. I'm still just as in love with Dom as I ever was, although I do wish I could see some of what he's been working on recently. I got used to seeing him almost every week during Lost, and now all these movies and things are in various stages of production and not even getting wide-releases... *sigh* I just miss him. Which kind of explains me falling in love with Gerard, Frank, and Mikey, I guess.

So basically, the point of this post is: I'm sorry I've disappeared from LJ so much. I'm still reading, but not commenting, which is bad of me, and I'm sooooorry. I don't like being non-posty, I like posting a lot, but I really haven't had time to sit down and write a real post. I haven't even had time to write in my physical journal. But I'm going home in two weeks, and once I get back home, I'm going to be bored out of my mind. And probably posting a lot. So be prepared. :D In the meantime, I love you all, sorry again for not commenting, and I will talk to you soon. ♥

A proper update might have to wait until I get settled in my dorm, 'cause I think I'm going to be busy the next few days like I have been this past week. Suffice it to say that I had a brilliant time with Tony and his family, and my family reunion/birthday party/graduation party didn't drive me completely insane. But for now, Dazzle's in another one of those video trick competitions. I think the prize for this is a trip to LA to do some TV show or commercial or something. I don't really know, but something good. :P

( info copied from Kat's email )

You can only vote once per IP address or something, but you can vote every day (which I think is a bit dumb, because everybody forgets after the first couple of times...). So, please vote!! I think Dazzle's a bit behind in the polls right now, even though she's certainly the most talented dog up there.

does anyone use hulu or fancast? are either any good? i want to be able to watch stuff on my computer when i go to school, but i'm not sure if they have what i'm looking for.

also, i have a new laptop, which i've named Jeeves. it is ever so lovely, and i'm learning how to use Vista.

also, my grandparents have left. so i am free again. finally. \o/